Rest in peace my dear friend

I have lost a friend. It came out of the blue. I still cannot believe she is no more. But her life on earth is over. A young, energetic person who cares and tends to every soul she comes across. Its amazing that she can befriend anyone. She had made her life a success out of her sheer perseverance and hard work. I salute her for that. She is an ideal friend one could have. She would go out of her way to get you something if you are her friend. An amazing daughter to have doted on her parents and have been their strength. An amazing human being to have lived on this planet.

Her sudden departure had thrown light on so many trivial things in life that I have taken for granted. I know her from college. We were a group of six. Initially it was all so joyous for us. We hung out in any one of our houses and we had a lot of fun together. Anything we did, we did together. Then slowly things changed. Some of us became closer. Some drifted off. She was one of those that drifted off. Or rather made to drift off. And we didn't stop her. We were too young to think. Too young to understand what friendship really meant. We took things for granted and slowly, this group of six became a group of four. Till this day we are. Nothing great happened for this break up. Silly misunderstandings and possessiveness that seemed too big for us then. Thinking back, we would laugh at ourselves for being so silly and childish. But then, when your world is your friends, it was the only thing that mattered and we moved on, not bothering to stop and hold out a hand to those who stayed back. We kept moving on. She was left behind. She moved on with her life. We were busy with ours. We bump into each other on occasions where we kept moving on with a polite smile and the usual Hi's and hello's and how are yous? None of us made that attempt or the effort to make it better. We were content with the way things were. We simply took it for granted, that we would keep seeing each other like this and things will continue to be peaceful.

Recently I bumped into her on Orkut and we simply exchanged the usual pleasantries. Nothing bloomed out of it though. Few days after that I get the news that she is no more. I was too shocked to react. I am sitting here now pondering over life, after having attended her funeral. I wish we had sorted out things. I wish we all hung out together happily like we used to. I wish we had the maturity to have reached out. I wish I didn't have to write this now. She is gone. We never will get to say things we wanted to say ever. What's the point though to all these wishes of mine. She cannot hear or read or say anything about any of these. I feel bad for having missed a person in my life. We run behind so many things and miss these trivial facts of life. We still keep running. Why don't we stop, pause and take a moment to catch up before we run any further. Life is too short to keep running behind things that will never define us, nor accompany us to the grave. At least we can try to leave behind fond memories. At least we can save ourselves from self pity. At least we can assure ourselves that we have made a difference in some one's life. Don't take life for granted and miss out on those trivial facts of life. Don't hesitate now, to say you care to someone who matters to you. Its no use crying over spilt milk. I am doing that now and I know how horrible it is.

I wish peace for her for wherever she might be. I wish peace for her family. May her soul rest in peace.